12 March 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Daddy I m extremely unsatisfied with my way of life now. Every day not eat, surfing net, psp, slp, bathing, I have been doing nothing but all that. I dun wan that!!! I really dun wan b a useless person who achieved nothing but rot away their life people. Is grace really that useless? Grace who is as you say in Christ and Christ alone. Daddy, you are mighty and strong, I who is your daughter really dun wan to b a useless person. I wan to achieved something that I could say proudly and loudly to everyone that “see! I m not useless. I achieved that in my life”. Really hate the feeling of being look down. My grandmother once told me “study you already like that liao, work you still like that, wan go den go dun wan go den dun go, like that can one meh, wad r u going to do with your life, you wan become useless person is it”. Whenever my relatives ask me question like study or work. I really ashame and no word to say to them regarding bout it. How am I to say to them that I have been rotting. And the worse of all is all my fren, cousin, all have been achieving something and yet I only had o level and nothing is achieved. I dun wan. I dun wan. Help me daddy, show me a path, show me a path that I could continue my life and lead me to a life that I m a successful person who I really hope in becoming someone who you can be proud of. Maybe what I could achieve is not that great in your great and mighty sight but to people sight, I really want to be a person who can testimonial to people that because of you, and you only, that I have changed and is successful. That you changed a wretch like me…
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