Anticipating a change of lifestyle
Monday, June 21, 2010
1 and half a month have pass since i became single. During this period, i realize how much my life has been impacted by you, especially things around me. Most no majority of my things are either brought by you or somehow it involve. Like: my pooh u bought for me, monopoly deal card is bought by you, jacket too, soft toys too. Til now i still do not have the courage to look at it was the crystal music globe you bought for me for valentine this year. Is it bcoz i really treasure it or i seldom see c, once i saw the globe in my cupboard my heart start to aches. The music is played was once i deeply love bcoz i have no idea how to describe but it smoothes my heart and it reminded me of your feeling of love for me. Weird :S ur feeling for me tt time was alr vanish or vanishing soon but tt music somehow has this power. tinking back, how i enjoy the gift is it depends on how much feeling i have tt i can feel ur love from tt music was only just bcoz i love u?
well, sometime has passed since i suggested break up, my heart still longing but it stable alr. i must really apologise for being a nuisance tt i kept trying to call u n msg u and not once have u reply or pick up my call. for tt i must apologise though u alr plainly showly ur i cant b bother wif u attitude tt i still kept harrassing u. thanxzfully i m being splash awake by u when u reject my call, the ringing stop and ur phone is off. i cried at tt time but not for long coz exam coming tt time, not much time to be depress.
therefore, i need wisdom. wisdom in not relying on other (human) and wisdom in taking care, loving my parent and friends. of course wisdom in enabling me to fuifil my dream which is a simple but too far fetch dream =.= getting degree and acca qualification, got a stable job at least 4k, been to japan, korea, taiwan for holiday (hot spring, comic, disneyland most impt), married and have at least 1 kid before age of 30 =)
enough of bad news (not including my dream), so glad i have a good news :) my result out today! hehe, judging by the way i sound, bet u guess the result alr ;) yup! i pass!!! =D really coudn't believe it especially since out of 20 marks 4 essay qn, i onli miserably barely able to ans 1 qn, which is to say i throw away 60 marks. So its impossible for me to pass but surprisingly yup i m totally depress, no mood to discuss exam ans wif my fren during 5 hours after my exam, but somehow after depressing gone i feel relieved. 1 down ;) haha confusing feelings rite. i was so anxious since yesterday, worrying bout my result. i have really no idea wad will i do if i were to fail, bcoz i have totally no interest in studying now. wonder y :S i hav tot of using studying to forget the feeling for him but it ended up biting my hands, causing me to lose interest or i can say i study until i m sick of all those papers. but i pass =D got c+ for law n b for com, my worse perform semester. result not tt fantastic but i pass :D:D cant contain my feelings my agitated feelings and the outburst feeling which i can feel it is going to explode in my body but haven yet and no where to go >.< i graduate!!!! hohoho.... now attempting to find an accounting office job. i hope (confident) to find abbah! =)
Really thanxz for guiding n helping and passing me >.<
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