22 Sept 2009 Tuesday
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
To think that for the past few days since 16 or 17 Sept that i cry almost everyday, feeling depress whole day. Sunday 20 Sept i finally broke down n cry almost to the point my heart bleeding, eye sore whole day, feeling headache and now too. My bro come comfort n i think i practically scream at him i want clive to answer my call :$ i really wanted an answer that i think prehaps i going mad. N wad were his reason for not picking my call. His whole day was packed n busy wif his fren stuff and he left his phone at his fren place =.= my bro told me it seem like a lie, i cant accept tt bloody shit lame reason. Whenever i need him, he was always not there. I really needed to a person to talk to, he say he was tired n he didn even call to tell me but juz onli a msg =.= n tt day i needed a answer, he disappear.
i ignore wad he send to me and he don't care. he nv even care why i ignore or whether i was angry annot. today at 4 something i online. i cant stand the feeling already. everyday i woke up feeling depress and headache, my heart aching like hell. n the reason he gave me for not finding me on monday was i'm sorry for not calling u yesterday, i was afraid to do so =.= to tink tt the guy i dated is such a loser =.= all the avoiding i done, off the phone, don't online is all for nth. i felt so dumb n stupid when he msg me tt.
i really can't stand all this le. even if my heart will break to pieces i would never ever date someone who won't care for me. these few days of being cold shoulder, i tink prehaps my feelings mayb somehow numb if not a few percent of it :S:S but if he answer me he will not find me when i didn online, i will break up.
yup grace, this is wad u have decided on tuesday 22 sept, 5pm.
posted at : 6:16 PM
