A refreshing morning
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Morning!!! Today woke up suddenly with a refreshing thought and it really touches my heart, relieving all the burden i have been feeling. Guess it trigger by my fren "perfect man".
"I'm not generous but u r, tts y i m too coz i m in u."
"I'm not pretty but u r, tts y i m too." (//n.n//)
"I'm not good with socializing, with relationship towards fren, bf, family but u r, u r the mighty one who noe anything and everything in this universe, u will noe how to react, how to build the relationship, tts y i can coz i m in u."
"I'm not smart and i cant take the studies anymore but u can! smart and everything, there is no reason u cant score, tts y i m in u i can score."
Well... Hehe everything is all but one statement. Its not about me anymore, i m dead, but all about christ in me the hope of glory. Its all about Jesus.
Thank you Jesus for loving me, being in me, taking care me. With u, i believe i can accomplish all through your strength, helping the useless no guts grace.
Today receive msg from my fren telling me she's craving for someone to love her, to listen to her, to take care of her. This sounded like a perfect man isnt it. I hope i can tell her this perfect man can only be Jesus, we cant find anymore tt is so perfect already. Well, she is buddish guess i cant :X But its true rite,
In human case, human are all selfish, girls wanna find the perfect man but guys too rite: the perfect girl. Which i no idea wad's their criteria for. Maybe viture, good figure, blah blah =.=
Human are prone to error too, i knew Jesus is the onli perfect one long time ago but think i m lost tts y i unconsiously place the perfect man burden onto clive. Wanting him to protect me, take care me, listen to me, helping me when i cant. Example my studies, i always look to him when i cant do it. But this not practical at all. My current this sem he told me plainly he dun really noe the subject i m studying now, so there is no way he can help, hope he can at least help me edit but he say he dun understand how can he help me edit. I get really disappointed in him, but thinking back this wrong of me rite. This is my burden, how could i force it on him :S Also, i think when i m disappointed in him, i will throw temper n sometimes saying i wanna break. Think that time he sick liao, therefore he threw me one statement, "wan break then let's break ba, if tts really wad u wan." This statement really caught me in surprise and a sudden wake up :-0 I have been treating clive the perfect man when i already knew human cant, expecting him to do this and that for me :X Also, think girls looking for this perfect man through human, in the looking, they belittle themselves, giving man chances for them to dominate, to cheat them of their feelings and maybe worse other things too :X
tts y human dexh: XXXXXX
If human cant, den where is this perfect man. Really all but gone???!!! There is onli one person in this world where he can love us so unconditionally, so forever and ever, non-stop loving, and that person is Jesus onli which i hope to tell my fren religion also cant. But cant, this is a very sensitive issue. But seriously ya rite, religion expect us to pray hard, fast, must eat vegetarian on certain days, certain things must be done to get wad we wanted. But Jesus gave it us to all, unconditionally, bcoz he help us accomplish those praying, fast, blah blah, o sin too, tts y we can hav it. Firstly, he went to the cross, taking away our sin when he had not even a bit sin, he threw away his life all for our sake. With this, we can have the blessed and solemn life he paid with his blood. Thank you Jesus for loving me grace, ur beloved daught so so much.
Grace, u musn't forget wad u help realise today! Its not able u anymore, the one who can accomplish nothing and so anti-social one but all about Jesus, he can and he will accomplish it through u. Bcoz u r in him, tts y u can :) Put all care to him and just rest in him.
Yes: this yr 2010 is a yr of rest :D:D:D
Jesus= Perfect man + Perfect strength (^.^)
Ps: no offense. this onli a posting to grace to constantly remind herself DONT EVER LOOK TO OWNSELF!!! FLESH ONLI CORRUPTED N DISAPPOINTMENT.
posted at : 11:12 AM
