Trouble over same thing again n again n again
Friday, April 23, 2010
How the trouble started? Well. its only just 5 mins ago tt it started happening. Grandma ask me hey wad's clive job doing now? i was like er. starhub. With care n concern towards me she probe into more details how clive financial situation are: 1k job, temp. She say go tell him to find other better job, in his situation will he b able to tc of his family. Well. i can onli say i say thousand over time but he dun wan listen. Once this topic started i feel trouble liao.
Grandma says to me i got to treat myself well, finding a guy got to at least like earn 2k so tt he is able to support a family n next she jump to hav i seen his parent? i was like nope and she continue ask is it i dun dare to go c well perhaps i m but actually in my most inner desire i hope dunno y but all my fren seem to hav gone to their bf house except me. weird rite :X
Most hurt words were if he dun even dare bring u to his house why are u still being so intimate wif him
i guess this is wad i hav to face sooner or later n i hav absolutely no idea which step to take. I scare of losing him, love or used to i hav absolutely no idea but tink love more i guess since i love his prescence, gives me a veri comfy warm feeling n haha i love touching his face :$ feels good >.<
i wan to survive so give me courage to face it. if i find a good job n started settling no perhaps with my impatient i may suggest it to him aft i graduate. the courage slowly build inside me til one day even the bu this word doesn hurt anymore.
he dun wan leave starhub, dun wan find other better job, dun even listen to my advice, dun even bring me to his house. all i can tink of r all this n i m not a person who sacrifice livelihood for love so abbah guide me. i m seriously in need of advise n courage from u :'(
posted at : 5:25 PM
